I am changed.

I have been called a lot of things  in my short 22 years. Some are pretty unmentionable and inappropriate. Others like over zealous freak, spiritual warrior( That is meant as an insult) and others have come across me. But you know what the one thing I want to be called when I meet my Father? Good and faithful servant. See today I have changed. I feel it. I feel the Holy Spirit jumping inside of me. I feel as if I could scream my heart out for the Lord. I feel as if I need to go 50 different directions all at once. 

Do you know why? Because today I feel the presence of the Holy Spirit. And it's not going away. Normally I would get touches of Him. Touches to reassure me He is there.  But today I was touched by the Lord.  Today I truly pressed into the presence of my Father with complete abandon and faith. Maybe it was listening to my pastor who God bless his heart decided to listen to God and skip his sermon and give an alter call. Maybe it was bowing before my God in surrender.Maybe it was listening to the quiet tears of my husband praying to our Father. Maybe it was feeling the hand of God stirring my soul. Or seeing His beautiful light, light up my soul. I can't explain it . But I am changed. 

I have been a Christian for about a year now. Praise the Lord that He sought me out and led me out of the darkness and into the Light.  I have a new outlook on everything. I prayed today as I have never prayed before. There was no reserve. Not boundaries. Just me and my Abba. I worshiped today with complete abandon. I listened today. I listened to what my soul has been screaming at me to do all along. Give up, give in, go to God. You see I cried out to God to touch me. To give me a purpose , to let me hear his voice. All I heard was silence. Why? Because I wasn't ready. I hadn't completely let go. I was afraid. 

Today marks the day that the fears, the shame, the everything die away. I have died and risen anew in the Lord.  The point is , today is the day I do not care what anyone calls me. Jesus freak, over zealous, spiritual warrior , Bible thumper. Whatever it may be that is said against me. The only true thing that matters is what God thinks of me. And I know I am beloved in his eyes. What I do with my time here on this earth, which is drastically coming to a close. And how I fulfill God purpose for me, through God. I trust he will guide me in the darkest places. I know He is there.. Because I FELT Him there. 

Thank you Lord for this revelation. Thank you for the Holy Spirit dwelling in me. Thank You for your arms that surround me. Thank you for the unconditional love and kindness, acceptance and grace. 

I love you Lord Jesus. More than anything and everything. My heart and soul jump at your name. I love you Lord God, my Father, I love you!

Prayer of healing

Father you have asked me to be a prayer warrior for my beautiful friend.Lord God you have given me this beautiful friend. She has been with me through out my life. You know who she is. You know her circumstances and what is going on. You know her and understand. You know her heart as well as her body Father. Hear her. I lift her up to you God for healing.. Complete healing of her body, mind, spirit, heart. You are our great God. You, who heal the sick and make the blind see. You.. Who healed my son Noah. I ask this for her. There are issues going on Father causing more problems. Lord whatever it is please completely heal and restore her. Show her you have heard her pleas Father God. Your will be done above all. Comfort her Lord god. She is such a beautiful and wonderful person. You know this.Watch over her as well as her husband Lord. Give them the direction and strength to get through this hard season.

They love you Father. I love you Lord.

Thank you for your Mercy. Love. Healing and Grace.

Amen

Quiet Stillness Peace

The Lord doesn't ask for much. Surrender, devotion and obedience are little compared to what our Lord gave for us. I find myself always at a loss for words all the time. I struggle and the Lord continuously has His arms around me. I struggle most with prayer. With devotional time. It seems my mind comes up with continuous things I could be doing instead.

Wrong. The most important thing is to talk to God. I hunger for his voice. I crave his presence. You know something remarkable. God's presence is always with me. But do I always tune myself to it? Nope. I always wonder when I cry out to God to hear his voice or feel his comforting hands if he laughs. Because his voice is there. I just don't listen for it. The fault is on me... never on the Lord.

My challenge for myself is to get back to the hunger for the word of God I had a year ago. To want to dig deeper into his word and look at it more as something I love instead of another chore. I find myself programmed as a mom on routine. Schedules dominate my life. My kids have a morning and bedtime schedule. I schedule around my house chores etc. Why do we have to schedule in God?

The answer? We shouldn't. Our lives should be scheduled around God. Great word I recieved there. It's a battle in my little world. But a battle I am going to face head on because of all things in this little life, this love I have for the Lord is the most important. It goes above and beyond anything. And when I go to meet my Father I want him to smile upon me and say Well done my good and faithful servant well done.

So back to Quiet, Stillness, Peace. Going to find a quiet place to talk one on on with God? Yes. Be still before Him so we can communicate and draw closer to one another? Yes. Find peace in the Lord because he is with me? Always